Don't be scared...

We light cigarettes and chase out old regrets.

2005-03-13T17:42:36Z

Florida is in like 10 days!!!

The show is wendesday:):)

im getting my hair done tuesday! who knows how quite yet. any suggestions then let me know:).

so anyways im totally happy with where i am right now and thats so sweet, i absolutly love my friends.

kay well im done:)

third times a charm and you know how i like it

2005-02-20T20:39:42Z

so break was pretty cool hung out with some cool kids and did some kinda fun things. yesterday was way sweet tho seen the weakend twice in one night which was lovely:)but i totally got left at the YMCA lol but oh well my ride found me at the knight of columbus:). i met this girl named sarah shes totally rad and of course i hung out with britt v which was awesome and shes a crazy driver. i missed katrinas faux hawk:( but im sure ill see it someday. i of course hung out with christina a couple times over break which i would of loved if it was more cause shes the love of my life and such so you know but yes i had fun with her we definatley bowled one night with will and glen i got like a 47 hah B-) anyways break was pretty entertaining.

and i would appricate if a certain someone would stop treating me like shit.

well march 16th theres a sweet show at st andrews and im going so im excited for that.

and then florida! oh my:)

:)

Everyday I still think about the way you held my hand.

2005-01-30T18:12:06Z

alright well i havnt wrote in it feels like ages so here i go.

friday i definatley seen hide and seek and it scared the crap out of me. then me christina and ash got some wendys which i didnt even eat, but we had are reasons for going in there;). then after we went to some kids house that was having a party but we had to leave early so blah. oh but my saturday was just hell i sat home and babysat my brother cause he had a female in his room and my mom didnt want me to leave them alone lol common now, actually im probably just using that as an excuse for the fact i had no where to go but shh. Actually i did, but without a license youre not getting far. well next weekend better be good or else.

well lattter<3

their words hit like bullets, straight through the heart.

2005-01-14T21:07:00Z

up nose shot<3

well shoot:)

its always sweet when you dont look at the camera;)

hold my hand its shakin bad

2005-01-04T01:36:11Z

well first off i would just like to say ashley schulte has got to be the best at dance dance revolution..which in my eyes is way sweet:)

so new years was cool spent it with the people i love.

i need to go to a show, its been to long, so if anyone knows any good ones let me know:)

yea.

Nicholas<3

this cant be true.

2004-12-23T05:15:53Z

i cant even believe this

i thought it was just a sick joke.

this is when you relize the little stupid things you think are so difficult arnt even close to be compared to this horrible tragedy.

i just hope my aunt and uncle and katie will be okay and my family:(

R.I.P Keith

we love you.

Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of what It means to hate.

2004-12-13T20:55:24Z

welll my weekend was okay

i got to see two wonderful people, which was awesome as always..allthough i wish nick knight could of hung out, but hes got that job. so friday i just went to the walnys:)..saturday hung out with christina emily and ashley..we went to aj's moms and played an enchanting game of uno, that game gets so intense, i love it. Then we went to the walnys for a bit. Spent the night at christinas and we watched american pie which may i add finch is such a charmer<3

dang christmas is soon:):)marvelous.

i love you.

Some things are better left unsaid, but i cant hold it in...

2004-12-04T04:11:26Z

so my chemical romance, bang bang, and quit your life was yesterday with Paula, christina, knight, barker, ashley, sarah, and erin. :) Quit your life was awesome and the drummer from quit your life oolala. annnnywho bang bang was pretty sweet drunk of there asses but for sure sweet. My Chemical Romance i thought was just as good as the 1st time i saw em..frank has a mowhawk now tho:-/ but oh well.
it was so fricken packed and i was surrounded by really big people,( im trying to put that in the nicest way i possibly can.) well anyways it was a great show.

i cannot wait until Napolean Dynamite comes out on dvd<33.

well i guess thats it.

<3!

you turned to me and said,"i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent"

2004-11-22T19:50:35Z

last nights show was amazing

name taken sucked butt, but hidden in plain view, midtown,and matchbook romance were ammmazing!
i didnt get kicked in the head this time which was nice, but i do think i had my 1st lesbian experience..this girl was rubbing her sick boobs against me the whole time..when mbr played tiger lily..i just stared in aw..andrews voice is so pretty:)

so my chemical romance and armor for sleep is dec 2nd..ah cant wait.

thanksgiving break better be sweet

C.N.S<3

xjessica45x @ 2004-11-06T12:19:00

2004-11-06T17:31:34Z

okay so yesterday i went to the mall with katrina britt and jess..we got tickets for hidden in plain view and matchbook romance for nov 21st:):) really excited for that one.

today my dad was in the attic and his leg totally fell through so now we have this lovely hole in our kicthen ceiling.

and i want to go to florida, only like 4.5 more months, pshh thats like forever away.:/

i would love to get my license too..but thats like NINE months away..omgosh:(

welll i guess thats it.

<3

i know you well enough to know you never loved me.

2004-10-27T19:07:11Z

i finally relized something

and it dosnt feel to great to relize the truth, i mean yea i was warned that this would happen and i would relize it someday by the people who honestly do love me..but it just sucks.

in the long run tho its probably for the better..i just hope that she sticks with me through this..shes been my best friend since 6th grade and id like to keep it that way..no more dwelling on the past im done with that crap..i love you britt.

anywho halloweens comming up which means tons of candy..which is more than awesome!

and thank you christina for making my background all hot:)BFFE<3!

xjessica45x @ 2004-10-24T16:21:00

2004-10-24T20:27:51Z

i was informed this week that my braces are comming off nov 16th, that more than excites me:):)

and well i just got home..it was gay, but at least tony was there to keep me company or else i would of been so ridiculously bored.

Christina this friday me, you, and DeGrassi, be here.<3

and..

i love you

xjessica45x @ 2004-10-18T21:10:00

2004-10-19T01:38:11Z

so im finally back in school, and yea i wanted to go back but now that im back i totally take back wanting to go back. yea well things are way confusing right now, and i really need to figure it all out..but until then i completley am in love with christina..and she is welcome over when ever she wants to watch DeGrassi with me.

so anywho today i spent the day with knight,barker,and alex..which was pleasant of course. i have a feeling there all gay together but who knows i could be wrong. it was nice hanging out with nick again it had been a while, hes a great kid for sure.

yea thats about it.

i love you..

play russian roulette as we kiss

2004-10-06T15:32:22Z

well my weekend was shit.

for many different reasons

i just cant wait until all this crap is over and i can go back to school, only 11 more days. :/

anyways i would just like to say that tony deanovich and nick knight are fucking amazing and i love them.

and paula is absolutly wonderful and i love her too.

also jenna, paige, and lauren, i for sure love you guys.

i guess thats it.

</3

lets play doctor babe..

2004-09-25T04:22:31Z

so last night was the senses fail show...emanuel,the bled,silverstein all played amazing..but senses fail just fucking rocked..there last song they played was one eight seven and i just extreamly blushed during that song. i so got kicked in the head by a crowd surfer that wasnt the best but hey w/e, and some crazy guy had me like pinned against the speaker for the longest time it was very disturbing he would not move i swear and then i had some black kid next to me screaming the words to every song he was for sure cute. my body hurt so bad when i got home and im suprised i didnt lose my voice..but yea it was fun:)

today i just hung out with tony and femi..we watched feardotcom..tony wouldnt watch it tho cause he was scared..i swear this kid is just ridiculous some times, but hes also awesome so oh well.

this weekend is kings island:):)

and yea thats it.

<3

oh my:)

2004-09-13T22:14:45Z

okay so last night was the show with brittany..the 1st band was okay the 2nd and 3rd were reallly good THEN Hidden in Plain View came on and it just was amaaazing..joe sang in my face and his butt was practically in my face the whole time too<3..brittany got a picture with her bf(rob) oh she was just sooo happy:)..oh yea there was also some pregnant lady standing in the front right next to me which she wasnt moving or doing anything..so this kid in this red shirt who was drunnk just starts going nuts and like pushing this pregnant lady all around and she like started to breath really hard it was nuts, but w/e it was funn:)!

senses fail is the 23rd..that shall be amazing, i still have to find a ride tho but it will happen it better.

britt, this weekend was tons of fun with you<3

i love you nick.

yea okay

2004-09-10T01:21:57Z

so yea tony and britt came over after school, right when tony walks in my dog totally just jumps on him and is about to hump him which tony freaked out and hes just a funny kid. well yea then liz nick anna and another girl but i didnt know her:/.. anyways they stopped over to eat my food but it was lovely to see them and nick made himself some walffels and liz ate my popsicles<33 after they left nick decided to stay here cause we were suppose to go to the stinkin game but NOOOO everyone of our rides ditched us! oh and nick had to go home anyways cause he forgot it was his dads bday. so brittany decided to ride this annyoing scooter thing and tony rode the go cart like a fool..then we just hung out in my room and talked and lisnted to music, then they left me:( and yea thats it.

i Looove you nick:)

nicole and dee<33

2004-09-04T18:00:59Z

so yesterday dee and nicole came and got me and we went to get dees perment and then we went out to lunch and art vans and khols for dees mom..then we went back to dees and watched the hot chick whick weve all seen about 90 times but its still hilarious every time i see it, well after the movie we started getting ready for the bonfire..when we got to the bonfire it was only like 730 so we decided to go get tony and femi and hang out with them for a bit then head over to the bonfire..eventually people strated comming and it was nice to see some people but me dee and nicole left after like an hour and half and went to some ladys house that nicoles mom knows and hung out there for a bit then back to dees house and me and nicole just stayed up talking while dee fell asleep on us that loser.

it was reallly nice getting to hang out with those two girls there so much fun<33.

nicholas kowalski<3

hooters

2004-09-02T01:36:53Z

welll today me and knight went to the LOVELY jenna rinke's and watched some muary and chatted which was nice:) then mike colsonti picked me and nick up and we went to get rob barkers sis and her friend and then we headed to hooters to eat..WAY to fucking exspenisve there and the girls werent even that hot, major rip off.. then we leave drop off barkers sis mike drops me and nick off at my house where we listined to jump on it about 70 times cause that song is nuts and yea thats about it.

jennas hot

and i love nick<3.

shit son

2004-08-26T14:22:37Z

alright last night was the my chemical romance show..they played amazing, i swear to god when Helena came on iv never blushed so much in my life...yea so when they were done we went out back got there autographs and pictures with them and some guy gave nick a free fan, and gerard signed it to our number 1 fan so that was for sure cute.also mikey gave me his number...psh yea right i wish:)..but yea it was definatley a good show and a fun night.

nick<3333

im home:)

2004-08-22T21:29:23Z

okay well iv been gone for like a week upnorth..it was really fun, not ganna really get into it cause i'd be typing forever, but i did meet these 3 girls, there absolutly awesome.

im getting my hair done tuesday..i have an idea of what i want, but knowing me im sure ill just dye it dark brown again

the my chemical romance show is wednesday:):) that should be excellent

and i love nick.

oh and i need a good flat iron cause straightners dont work for crap on my hair so i need to find one NOW

holy cow

2004-08-15T19:07:19Z

well i just got back from up north, i actually had alot of fun..im going back up tommorro most likely.

the 1st night i was there some guy and his brother brought out a guitar, bongos,and one of those meraca things..no idea how to spell that one..anyways we just sat around the fire and he played like a thousand songs for us, all the drunk adults were singing along and that was just lovely. yea so the 2nd night was really fun too but yea my birthday is wendsday:)OH! and my room is finally done and painted all neat like i wanted it, and i love it very much.

i love you nick <3

well brittany made this thing for me. <33 shes for sure cute.

2004-08-12T18:35:15Z

well yesterday rob nowak and nick knight pick me up, as robs backing out of my drive way he hits my neighbors car..and rob did the smart thing and left a note for them..good kid. anyways we go to brandenburg cause its rob's brothers birthday..haha a few minutes after we get there mike colsonti gets in a fight with josh kesterson or w/e, that was the best part at brandenburg after that everything got boring..so me nick and rob left went back to my house to talk to the lady who owned the car he hit..then we leave me and nick go back to his house, then we decide to go to semaans cause were starving and we figure he has food..after eating we just sat around for a little bit then emily picked us up and we went over there.. she bought me dairy queen:) that was sweet of her. After a while emily and semaan made me and nick go downstairs lol..so nick decides to go on the computer and well that didnt go so well..but i think everythings okay now. so its cool overall it was a fun night.

Nick <33

xjessica45x @ 2004-08-10T15:24:00

2004-08-10T19:24:15Z

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